Our mind is analogues to a fidget spinner.Whenever we want to distract ourselves from thoughts that we do not want to ponder upon, our mind is programmed to distract us from them. Sometimes it may get “fidget-ty”. We are not in control of our thoughts. From these 17 years of my life I’ve definitely learned that bit. All of our thinking stands on that one single question, ‘What am I doing wrong?” , just like the spinner resting on that one finger or maybe even a nose!
It’s almost the month of August. I still remember the Instagram memes that said ‘June over? Julying,’ The days are getting over faster and faster and so is my anxiety growing bigger. Why anxious? Well, I am currently in the last year of my schooling and next year I’ll be welcomed (heartily? Not certain) into the ‘real’ world, as they say. And the prime dilemma I’m facing is ‘Separation Anxiety Disorder’, also known as SAD.
Separation anxiety disorder is a condition in which a child becomes fearful and nervous when away from home or separated from a loved one — usually a parent or other caregiver — to whom the child is attached.
Lets focus on the “child”. A 17-year-old is undeniably an adult. So why in the world would I suffer from this sort of anxiety?
When you are left alone undistracted and with a clear mind, the brain decides to play a game. Simple, it said. All you have to do is think about the people who are presently not around you. Think about what they are doing at the moment. And if they are doing something fun in your absence, there you go! You won the game. The brain has successfully helped you divert from the environment.
This is the separation anxiety disorder I am facing. Such an anxiety hit me just because I was away from my dear ones for a day. Imagine how vulnerable I’ll be next year when I will be meeting new people and new faces shall be registered in my memory. This is the exact anxiety that I am facing. Yes, it does sound childish. Trust me, the thought of it cracks me up too.
What you may not realize is that adult separation anxiety may also be a serious problem, and psychologists have considered adding it to their diagnostic manual. Many adults are prone to these separation anxiety issues and may not even know it, indicating that the problem may be more widespread than it was first believed
In my case, this discomfort was taken away by just one phone call. A call that lasted for two hours. And that’s how less complex our mind is. Once we have mastered the technique of fidget spinning, a satisfaction is developed.
Writing about all of this reduces the congestion in my head. As long as those ‘Dear people’ don’t read this post and wonder why the heck am I friends with her, I think I am in the safe zone.
Anyways then ,